June has been an unusually crappy month for me. You would think that with my birthday and anniversary things would be good. Ugh. Just the opposite. As you probably already know from Ayla's blog , she was diagnosed with Squamous Cell Carcinoma. Say that ten times fast. It's a malignant form of skin cancer that's in her oral/sinus cavity. I know she's 16 years old but she's like my kid to me. OK well maybe not kid but more like best friend. This is the only one who has been through almost every single stage of my life: college, grad school, the music industry, depression, to me getting back on my feet. She has been the constant. The vet didn't give me a timetable but from what I've read, when she starts going downhill it will be quick. On top of that, I did not get the Lecturer position I interviewed for. I had gotten my hopes up on that one too since it would be great to have one job to go to instead of three. Plus I would be teaching which is one of my favor...