Feeling the Pain
This month has been rather...well...sucky. Too much has been going on and not all of it good.
To start off with, my job has turned into a really sucky mess (that'll be the "word of the day" today). I'm forced to move into a new office so they could make room for all the new tenure faculty coming in. The way it was explained to me was that I am not worth anything and that my desk in the office with the nice window has to go to "real" faculty. While those were not the exact words used, the tone was.
My new office? In the bottom of the science building (got to love those natural gas fumes :P), no window, and cinderblock walls. What's better? I get to share it with seven other people. How they fit eight desks, eight filing cabinets, and a small conference table in this room is beyond me. On top of that, it's off the noisiest hallway in the entire fucking campus. Joy. I'll be investing in a good set of noise-canceling headphones in the next couple of weeks. I went down last week to snag a decent desk. Of course all the good ones were taken, but I managed to snatch one in the corner with its own filing cabinet. I may just switch around the desk and the filing cabinet to get a little bit of privacy and to negate some of the noise coming from the door.
I've packed up my office and deleted most of the files off of my computer. For some reason, they won't let me take my computer with me. I have to use the one already down there which hasn't been updated in a few years. Heck, it still has Office 2003 on it and I thought the whole campus had already upgraded at the end of last year. Anyways, I've accumulated a lot of stuff over the past two years and it's hard cleaning it all out and packing it up.
The thing that has been hardest for me is that I've worked so hard over the last three years (one as an adjunct and two as a lecturer) and I've got so little to show for it. The higher ups don't seem to care that I'm a good teacher and asset to the college. They now see me as a burden to fill in temporarily while one of the "real" faculty is on sabbatical. Bah. Part of me almost wishes that they just told me I wasn't coming back in the fall. At least I would've gone out with some respect. Now they are just throwing me in the basement to be used as a whipping boy for one more semester and I get nothing really out of it.
To start off with, my job has turned into a really sucky mess (that'll be the "word of the day" today). I'm forced to move into a new office so they could make room for all the new tenure faculty coming in. The way it was explained to me was that I am not worth anything and that my desk in the office with the nice window has to go to "real" faculty. While those were not the exact words used, the tone was.
My new office? In the bottom of the science building (got to love those natural gas fumes :P), no window, and cinderblock walls. What's better? I get to share it with seven other people. How they fit eight desks, eight filing cabinets, and a small conference table in this room is beyond me. On top of that, it's off the noisiest hallway in the entire fucking campus. Joy. I'll be investing in a good set of noise-canceling headphones in the next couple of weeks. I went down last week to snag a decent desk. Of course all the good ones were taken, but I managed to snatch one in the corner with its own filing cabinet. I may just switch around the desk and the filing cabinet to get a little bit of privacy and to negate some of the noise coming from the door.
I've packed up my office and deleted most of the files off of my computer. For some reason, they won't let me take my computer with me. I have to use the one already down there which hasn't been updated in a few years. Heck, it still has Office 2003 on it and I thought the whole campus had already upgraded at the end of last year. Anyways, I've accumulated a lot of stuff over the past two years and it's hard cleaning it all out and packing it up.
The thing that has been hardest for me is that I've worked so hard over the last three years (one as an adjunct and two as a lecturer) and I've got so little to show for it. The higher ups don't seem to care that I'm a good teacher and asset to the college. They now see me as a burden to fill in temporarily while one of the "real" faculty is on sabbatical. Bah. Part of me almost wishes that they just told me I wasn't coming back in the fall. At least I would've gone out with some respect. Now they are just throwing me in the basement to be used as a whipping boy for one more semester and I get nothing really out of it.
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