Warning: Incoming Burnout

It's not even the last month of the semester yet and I'm already starting to feel the burnout coming on. I know the depression is making things a lot worse for me but come on...I really like school. I should not be feeling this way when it's not even the middle of November yet. After Thanksgiving is a different story.

My Life Drawing class driving me a bit nuts. The professor wants us to do four hours of drawing a week for homework. That isn't so bad, but I tired out after only two hours. Since the projects lately have been one drawing that takes four hours, it's not like I can stop and take a nap or rest or anything. Instead I have to push myself. What was worse is that in his e-mail to me for this week's homework (as I missed last week's class), was really unclear and I ended up not doing the project correctly. Ya, I could've asked him to clarify it, but unfortunately, he's usually never very specific so he would've just confused me anyways. LOL. At least I got credit for doing the project. What's really funny is that he liked my drawing--even though I didn't do the right assignment--so I guess it isn't all bad.

Animation class is...well...let's just say I'm not enamoured with it. I love 3D animation but this semester we're just trying to cover way too much stuff and the professor hasn't been all that helpful. I've been getting more beneficial information and help from the tutor and the lab techs than I have been from the professor. His philosophy is that you figure out what you want to do and then figure out how to do it. It's a good philosophy but when I can't figure out how to do something, I would like him to show me how to do it. I'm not saying I give up after five minutes of trying. Last week I worked on a problem for over an hour before I finally gave up. The worst part is that he missed class for a conference but didn't arrange for a tutor or a tech to be there to help us. I was a bit miffed at that. Since I didn't feel like wasting my time any more I went home instead.

Oh ya, I did register for my classes for the spring. I'm signed up for three at the moment but I'll most likely drop the third one:

  • 2D Animation II - This is the last animation course required for my major, and the last course I need to graduate I think.
  • Intro to Criminal Justice - This is my "fun" course. My biggest problem this semester is that I'm taking courses specific to my major and courses I have to take. This puts a lot more stress on me. So I want to take a class that interests me for fun.
  • Painting I - This is the class I'll probably drop. I may ask the professor if I can sit in on it. I love to paint, but the professor is the same guy I have for Life Drawing and I don't know if I want that much homework right now. LOL

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